oh yeah, that asshole!

Wed, 13 Feb 2008 08:38:02 GMT

I'm just going to say "Fuck".

Sat, 02 Feb 2008 08:46:22 GMT

I fucking hate the hypocrite parents I have.
I fucking hate the god damn life style that I have.
I fucking hate that I knew so many people and they're pretty much out of my life like an unwanted pregnancy on prom night.
I fucking hate all the people I have to deal with on a day to day basis.
I fucking hate that I'm going nowhere.
I fucking hate the thought I have no idea what I want to do in life.
I fucking hate that nobody even knows.
I really fucking hate that I can't do a god damn thing about it.

Yes, I'm posting something on lj.

Tue, 08 Jan 2008 01:13:14 GMT

I really don't know where I'm going in life.
Relationships.
career.
morales.

It's not like things are bad for me, but they're not great. I find myself analyzing people
and feeling very envious.

Tue, 06 Mar 2007 22:14:22 GMT

Fuck everyone.
Who can bitch in 70 degree,
beautiful fucking weather?

Sat, 03 Feb 2007 22:34:23 GMT

Holy fucking shit!
I love my fucking job!
Praise the LORD.
At my orientation it was just the other people starting
out, and we just talked about different video games for like an hour and half.
It was so fucking awesome.
Then I found out that video game publishers and developers go to our store
all the time, like just last week, all the employee's got a free copy of Gears of War.
Shit damn! I also get all the free movies I want to watch, I get to rent movies out on dvd
that aren't even for sell to the general public. Then I also get to play games before the come out
on sale.
Fuck shit damn cock fuck ass shit, I'm fucking lucky.

Fri, 02 Feb 2007 20:51:04 GMT

I got a job at Game Crazy as being shift leader.
Fuck yeah!

Handi-caped.

Thu, 25 Jan 2007 22:12:00 GMT

I'm fucking bored off my ass.
I need to find something to do during the day.
Fuck it, I'm going to go play Half-Life 2.

Mon, 22 Jan 2007 09:53:05 GMT

I had the ambition to go to sleep early tonight.
With that, I can't fucking sleep.
I had a panic attack the other day.
Fucking Bullshit.

Sun, 05 Nov 2006 11:07:43 GMT

I wish I could get a fucking call for a job.
I miss Keiha.
Fuck.
I really wish shit was easier.
I feel as if everything is impossible to reach.

Shit fuck jesus is right.

Thu, 21 Sep 2006 23:25:50 GMT

Well, surgery went fine.
I feel like hell.
The entire incident feels like a dream.

Ahahaha!!!
It was funny, when the nurse took out the I.V. a stream of blood followed
from my wrist, she was all sorts of freaking the fuck out.

Eh, like Jay, of Jay and Silent Bob said, "Man, perkiset fucks you up!"
I now know what he's talking about.
Hahaha!!!

Thu, 21 Sep 2006 01:38:05 GMT

Surgery tomorrow.
12:45pm.
Fuck.

Ahahaha!!!

Mon, 18 Sep 2006 05:02:21 GMT

So Heather and I challenged a middle schooler and a highschooler
to a pick up game of basically ball.
Heather and I, obviously out of shape.
Them adequately in shape.

Anyways, we kicked they're ass 12 to 8.
It was so fucking funny for some reason.

Fuckin' stoner ass little kids.

UPDATE.

Wed, 13 Sep 2006 07:06:36 GMT

Alright, I had one of the worst pains in my right testicle last night.
I wanted to cry, but I didn't.
Today though, it was the left.
It hurt so fucking bad I could barely walk,
and when I coughed it was a extreme surge of pain.
So I refrained from smoking.

Lifes good.
I need to stop being so indecisive, and create dramatic scenarios
in my head, damn, I do need to stop that.

Surgery was pushed back another 2 fucking weeks.
So its going to take even longer for me to get my shit together
and kick it to Portland.

I miss people, I miss the way things were.
Damn, life's a bitch.

I need some fucking closure.

I needed something to kill sometime.

Wed, 30 Aug 2006 20:42:05 GMT

I just found out today.
I'm pretty damn good at playing the Harmonica.

Heaven.

Mon, 28 Aug 2006 04:56:03 GMT

I'm here at the house that I'm sitting up in Federal Way.
This place is fucking amazing.
I could get use to this, suburbs aren't that bad.
Progressively the women become better looking (Too bad they're more than likely superficial).
Everywhere I see Porsche's, Jaguar's, and Bentley's.
I really could get use to this.

I'm so stoked.

Tue, 22 Aug 2006 04:18:50 GMT

I just purchased my first motor vehicle.
I feel good.
Too bad I can't fucking drive it.
Parents are bitches.

Mon, 21 Aug 2006 05:31:43 GMT

That was really odd.
I just got off the phone with Sarah, to see if her and Logan were alright.
I hang up, I then hear screaming on the other side of the pond.
Huh.

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 23:43:16 GMT

I found out today that I could die.

Wed, 16 Aug 2006 03:17:23 GMT

$400 a month.
Plus an extra $40-50 for bills.
This is for one room mind you.
Fucking bullshit.
Oregon's minimum wage is $7.15.
Fuck this.
I can't take this, plus my testicles
either having, a thickening of the "tubing", a si st, or a hernia.

"Thats life."

Mon, 14 Aug 2006 06:19:48 GMT

I swear I'm becoming more and more bi-polar.
I'm happy one day or one hour, then I just feel like shit.
I'm never "there" mentally anymore it seems like.
I feel han-di capped in ways.
Physically, there's something wrong with me, I've felt like shit
the past few days. I've been getting testicular pains again, except extremely worse.
They hit my stomach and make it turn over.
I'm constantly restless, weak, and confused.
My mother is making a doctor's appointment for me sometime this week.

I've been thinking allot lately, trying to stay positive,(works for about five minutes)
but it seems like such a challenge for me lately.

I found myself staring at the moon last night hardly enjoying a cigarette, saying to myself,
hoping for an answer back "Whats on the other side of that moon?".

I know not everyone has they're shit figured out.
I know life isn't easy.
I know living isn't cheap.
I know I'm in for quite a ride.

What would I do right now without Frank Sinatra and Radiohead?
Anyways, Portland here I come.

Sat, 12 Aug 2006 09:50:32 GMT

For the first time, in a long time.
I'm happy, like a consistent happy.

Sat, 12 Aug 2006 00:25:10 GMT

That was one of the most emotional fights ever.
I feel lost.
Shit isn't easy.
I fucking hate crying.
I wish my mom could understand me.
I wish i could understand her.

On another note, I'm going to be moving to portland sometime around september I believe.
I don't want to, but I think its for the best.
I know people don't want me to leave, but shit, something
has to happen with me.
I need to find something for me, I need to focus on me for once.
I'm into shit I can't handle.
But fuck, I need something different.
I need a sign, something, to show me the fucking way.
Because right now, I'm blinded by;
Wanting shit to stay the same.
Feeling like shit pretty much everyday and having to hide it.
Feeling sorry for myself.
Also not being susceptible to all this change.

I need this.
I'll be leaving everything I've ever known,
but this will be for the best.

"If it wasn't this, it'd be something else."

Well...

Mon, 31 Jul 2006 09:16:55 GMT

...I'm pretty much useless.

God damn.

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 06:52:15 GMT

I'm not dead.

I feel like I've lost allot of good friends.

I'm annoyed with everything.

Everyone seems to be annoyed with everything I do lately.

I'm really trying to get my shit together.

I'm still getting shit from my best of friends though.

They more than likely don't mean it.

If so, fuck it.

Still hurts.

I'm analyzing everything lately.

So I've been smoking pot allot lately, fucking deal with it. I do it cuase I feel like I have nothing else better to do.

If you think I have a problem, come to me as someone with compassion and patience. Not a rude comment that would ultimately ruin a good night.

I don't believe people are understanding where I'm coming from.

I don't believe anything I'm saying is justifying any of my actions.

I do believe this will pass though.

Sat, 15 Jul 2006 20:05:40 GMT

I passed my written.
25 out of 25.
My drive is scheduled 2 weeks from today.
So stoked.